Friday, April 25, 2003

Decision Making

What should do??? Decision making............

Have you ever asked why you are doing certain things that you are currently doing? Well, it surely must have crossed your mind some time or the other. Either you gave it a really hard thought, and gave up, or you did not think about it any further, or you got to some distance on it successfully, and got to a concrete decision. Well, I've gone a step further, and have put my bungled up thoughts on paper (rather on the public domain for everyone to have a look at). Maybe, they can relate to a few of my thoughts, and for those of you who have been tearing apart their hair (like me) on what to do when confronted with such a decision; well, maybe even all of you could help yourselves by reading this.

Sometimes, rather many a times I have in fact been confronted with such a situation, and most of the time I've thought this to be the best course of action. There is this basic theory that I've formulated, and I sort of use it as a basis for almost all decision making. I think it's generic enough to be applied in alomost all such cases. So, here it goes: "Do something that will directly or indiretly help you or others around you." Ok, they need not be 'around' you, but you pretty much get the picture...... A direct implication of this would be to refrain form doing anyting that has absolutely zero or minimal productivity value form a long term persective with relation to anyone concerned. Do what you feel is right when give two things that can be done at that point or instant of time. Now, here 'right' might not necessarily confirm with the notion of what 'right' might be to others around you or who analyze the situation form a different point of view. This is better understood than said. Do not, I repeat do not do anyting that might make you feel uncomfortable, and give you the label of a conformist. It's better to be a non-conformist, and do something that you feel is the right thing to do. After all, if what you do does not turn out to be the right thing to have done, then you will be the one responsible for your decisions. Consider the scenario when what you do might not be the right thing to have done: Then, you can very well say, ok after analyzing the situation, I think that here's where I went wrong, and I should have done this differently, or in a way that may have affected the final outcome of the decision in a different, or more positive manner. You will be able to confidently say this to yourself, only if that decision you took at that juncture was what you felt was the right thing to be done. If you had done something that you felt was inherently wrong or incorrect and still you went ahead with it, and you face a block somewhere along the way, you will always look back at that juncture and say to yourself: "I should have done that differently." This has at least two direct or indirect negative implications. 1. You might never be able to find the real cause of your failure, or to be more precise, you will never look back at the other junctures to see if you made a wrong turn somewhere else. There will be this kind of prejudice about that particular decision. 2. You won't feel like continuing with whatever task that you have undertaken, and the whole aim of beginning it will be a total waste. You will feel thoroughly disgusted with yourself, and it might even adversley affect youe health. In my opinion, worse than not undertaking a task is not finishing an already undertaked task. This statement has come about because of my own personal experiences. Maybe even you might have experienced some of this, or something vaguely similar to this...... or, maybe not...... The former path of choosing what you think is right will help you futher in making youeself stronger in the respect of making youeself even more conscious about the fact that you, and not some joe, not even the society is responsible for the decisions that you take, and which direcly or indirectly affect you and others around you. You have a certaing responsibility towards the society, or others, or whoever it might be; but, the final decision of anything is in your sole hands. So, choose wisely, so that you will not have to repent later on something that you felt that could have been better at some earlier stage. Also remember this: Life's too short, and there is no guarantee that you'll wake up tomorrow morning......

Saturday, March 08, 2003

Are you living upto your worth?

Read on to fine out if you can make your life worth the while, or rather worth the life.......

Sometimes I feel "why am I here"? Its like what have I been sent here to do, and what entity am I? Am I actually here and living, or is it just a thought? Am I making a complete mess of my aim of life? Sometimes I feel that it would be better to just give everything up, and just be like a lifeless stone, but then almost immediately, I think of the power of ONE, and the difference that an individual can make to society, and I find the motivation to go on. Other times there are when I'm completely lost and life's like a huge burden which has been given to me to make others happy, and I say to myself its one of those days when nothing goes right for you. You get caught for not buying a ticket on train, and you loose your way, step into a hole, and hurt yourself, and try to blame someone else for it all. But, then, living life itself is an art in itself; be it for yourself, or for someone else. Then you feel that yes, you will have to let go of certain things, so that your near and dear ones are happy, and that in itself will make you happy too. The other day, I was coming home from college in the first class compartment in the local train, and I noticed an elderly, but well dressed man chewing on sugarcane, and merrily sucking it up. He seemed to be working in a bank from the looks of things. After he finishes, he put all the left-overs in a polythene bag, and very conveniently placed them under the seat, and left. You cannot imagine what I felt at that very moment. It was like a pool of words floating around in my mind. What my parents, my teachers, and others around had been telling me, my own thoughts, stuff I hear other people saying, and it was like this whole jungle of words, and I was lost in it. I felt like a helpless person caught in the middle of my own thoughts. I was thinkng of all the values injected in me by all the people that I have met, and how I cannnot not listen to what everyone has to say, but still act the way that I want. At that moment, I thought, what is the use of knowledge, and education if this person cannot even pick up his own crap and throw it away. What? let others do the dirty work for you, and that too your dirty work??????? Never. That is not acceptable. Definitely not. Then my thoughts got back to my role in my life. It might sound stupid at first, but you should think of your role in your life. We usually think of ourselves and our lives as one thing, but isolating them and then giving it a thought will really help. What have you been sent here to do? Are you achieving your full potential? Ask yourselves this question time and time again, till you strike at soomething. Then, I felt the urge to live, and live my life the way I want to, and the way it will make a difference to me and all around me. Life comes only once, and living it the way you want to live it is the right way to do it. I felt that by doing so, I'll be able to help out other people who face difficulties in the things that I enjoy doing. Maybe they were forced to do it for watever resason, that is beyond my control. But, I'm very much sure that if they were given a chance to live life in their way, they would surely have excelled their field. So, I consider myself really lucky to have been given that chance, and want to take the utmost advantage of this wonderful opportunity that had been bestowed upon me by God, and thank God for it. Yes, I can make the difference in this world. I can make it a better place for others and myself to live in. That's exactly what I have been sent here to do. I felt as if a huge burden was off my chest, and now I could live life how it was ment to be lived. I thank the Lord for giving me this realization. Elated I definitely was. By then, my station had come, so I quietly picked up the ribbish that that man had left, and got off, and threw it in the first waste bin that I saw.

Friday, February 28, 2003

"Hello World" post [first post]

Hello everyone. Firstly, all of those who read this need to be really whacky people. I was wondering why what we write is always more clear, understandable, and concise than what we speak, and definitely more of all that than what we think. If we think about what we think (isn't it kinda recursive, anyways), then, we can probably know what goes on inside our mind. I think that this happens because we cannot speak, and definitely not write as fast as we can think. Isn't that pretty apparent? Well, anyways, even as I write this particular sentence, I'm thinking of at least10 different ways of forming the remaining part of this sentence, and each word that I write has been scanned by my brain for the spelling correctness, gramatical correctness (as in tenses), and also so that it means what I want to express, and it fits into the sentence that I'm writing. However hard I try, and try, and try, and try even harder, I simply can not get my thoughts exactly onto paper, or in this case onscreen. All the sentences in my mind are half complete, half some other sentence, and somewhere else, I'm thinking of what my next sentence is going to be. Its like I know I'm thinking about the next sentence, but at the same time I can not feel that I am. Its kinda pretty wierd if you try to do it youeself. But, by the time I finish writing this sentence, the next sentence automatically comes out without me knowing, and my before I know, I'm furiously typing it out on the keyboard. So, guys and gals out there, just give it a thought, and be amazed at how confused and intertwingled you can get with just something as simple as your thoughts!!!